New Beginnings
Upon the suggestion of a few other internet people, I have started my own blog. There are a few people that I read religiously every day (sometimes more!), and it amazes me how popele can be so witty and amusing in their blogs, yet at other times, it breaks my heart, and I cry with people that are hurting too. The Net is an amazing thing.
Before I just jump into my life and my everyday rants, I suppose, everyone will need a summary. My life isn’t as simple as I sometimes desire, and I have to be doing a gazillion things at once, or I feel useless, so in order to hit the ground running in my mind, you will need these useless facts.
I just turned 30. I have issues with it. Those issues are for their own entry, I think. I married my HS sweetheart when I was 20, and we had a son when I was 21 (barely). I thought I was old enough…. Now, I know I had no clue. Junior is 8 now. Entering 3rd grade, and is a great kid. He’s sweet, funny, and honest. He’s what you would call a “gentle soul”. I firmly believe he will go far in life.
Anyway, when Junior was turning 4 (2003), we had a birthday party. My best friend came up from LA to spend the weekend. I went to get the cake and came back to the XBF and the (now) EX enjoying their own dessert… in my bed. I moved out the next weekend, we sold the house, and I moved on. She left her hubby and moved in with the EX, and they got married a few years ago, and now they are unhappy together. I hold no bitterness toward them. I wasn’t happy in my life, and I am blissfully happy since the divorce. Honestly, I think it was the greatest thing that could have happened. He’s a better Dad now that we are divorced. He takes Junior every weekend, pays his support every Friday since the day I moved out. It’s a great arrangement.
Onward and upward… its been three years now since I was thrown back in the dating pool. It was ugly and scary. I never want to do it again. July of 04, I met a man. We hit it off great. He was “the one”. I knew he was. He got scared and ran off. Then he came back. Then he ran off. (Do you see a pattern here??). A year later, I left my, then, boyfriend (abusive asshole) and moved closer to The One. He wanted to hang out once a week. After the first few weeks, there really wasn’t a day we didn’t hang out. Slowly, he was moving in. He proposed 10/05 and we started planning the wedding. Two weeks later, I didn’t want to plan a wedding any more. Big weddings suck, and if you had any idea how big my family is, you would know its no picnic. 2006 was going to be a huge year for us… Vegas, Gr Canyons, moving, AZ, and more… so there was no time for a planned wedding. Not to mention I work politically, and we had 2 elections scheduled in 2006… Nope, wasn’t gonna happen. So… Jan 13th, we ran up to Tahoe and eloped. Just The One, Junior and I. And it was perfect. As it stands now, we are gonna have a reception in September, I think.
We want to have a baby in the next two years or so. I want the baby, I don’t want to be pregnant. I hated it with Junior. He was a big pain… literally. But, I digress, the outcome and the result of all the pain is well worth it. Junior was a good baby. Now, you know, I wont be as lucky this time around.
Once of my goals before I get pregnant, is to drop about 40#. Realistically, I would be happy with 20#. I flip flop between 190-205 right now. I have started running again. Junior has really gotten into it for the first time, and we run 10 miles a week or so. I want to start doing longer runs on the weekends when he is at his Dad’s though. Most of our runs are 2 miles. He did his first 5K on the 4th of July, and really got a kick out of it. I need to find another for us to run in. My other goal is to continue to eat right. Dieting is not my forte, however, I need to recognize portion control. I came from a meat and potatoes back ground, and eat everything on your plate mentality. So, that’s a work in progress.
I have plans for the next 5 years. One of these days, I will put them in writing, and be able to look at them and see what’s really doable.
Well, that about sums up me and my life… Maybe I should do one of those “100 things about me” posts that I see others do…. Cuz, ya know… really… doesn’t everyone need to know 100 things about me?!?!
